Aww … I miss him. How he’s shy, the way he talks, holds my hand, kisses me, just everything … I wish I didn’t feel like crap so I could actually finish unpacking and do laundry and shower and get ready and actually be productive some part of the day *sigh* Oww I hurt …

I’m gonna be frickin’ surprised if I don’t fail history. Seriously, I hate that class, the subject, and the professor — I can’t stand stuff that I’ve been forced to learn before, especially history, because really, what is the point of knowing it if it’s already happened? You can’t do anything about it. Plus, it just had to be that time of the month, so concentrating on such a stupid subject is made 100 times harder by cramps, dizziness, and wanting to fall asleep right there on the table. Not to mention allergies. If I had time, I’d make a history hatelisting

But psychology was surprisingly easy … let’s just hope my grade reflects that, since I studied for all of like ten minutes *shrugs* Had lunch with Meghan afterwards, which was cool since I probably won’t see her all summer. Apparently Jon and Daryl still aren’t speaking and Jen broke up with Scott again, but who knows how long that’ll last. I just hope she works stuff out … but then again, I’m kinda going through the same thing, so I dunno … we will eventually

Crap, I need to pack … I’m leaving in like 24 hours. And shower, take my books back, distribute the rest of my painter forms, write a thank-you note, call some clients, get my PS2 and DDR back, clean out my UREC locker … what else? Bah.

So, today. Pretty busy. Listening to Good Charlotte right now, which I haven’t in awhile. I’m kinda cold ’cause of the stupid weather, even though I closed both my window and the suite windows like 3 hours ago. Bah. And did laundry and got dinner with Doron. Speaking of which, I now have my painter forms, so gotta make sure I get them to everybody, especially those who I’ve never met lol. Crap, forgot to check email .. *goes and does that* … fuck, I have precisely 116 Hostway emails, most of which are fanlisting submissions. I’m so behind — curse you Hostway for making PHP and MySQL cost like $50/month. I wish I could move to Pinchpenny.

And no one in this industry
Understands the life I lead …

Yep. Well, I told Jed that I’d had a crappy weekend, and I was really surprised that I didn’t get “the talk” or something similar. I was also surprised that, unlike last year, you don’t get fired if you don’t do 15 estimates the week school’s out. So I guess that’s good, except I think I’m running out of frickin’ territory. Marketing sucks.

Are you happy out there in this great wide world?

Not completely. Had a long talk with my dad on Sunday … definitely was interesting.

There’s things I’ll take to my grave
But I’m okay, I’m okay
It’s been a long hard road without you by my side …

“Emotionless” is turning into another one of my songs. At least HansonForums.net is going well, people are still joining like crazy and the post and reply numbers are slowly increasing. Man, why am I tired? I got my 8ish hours of sleep … went to bed at 3 and woke up around 11:30. Oh well … wonder when I should wake up for my meeting with Melantha … exam is at 4, and I need to study for once, so I’m thinking late morning if I’m not up ’til the early morning I’m so gonna miss JMU this summer … college rocks. But it was a fairly good year … I had my share of drama, but something’s telling me I ain’t seen the end yet *shrugs* Only time will tell. And my left foot hurts … don’t know why my new Dr. Martens decided to blister it and not the other. Blah. Now I gotta wait ’til it heals. Guess it’s good that it’s only one, though.

I know what to say but don’t know where to begin
I feel I’m losing you beneath my skin
Is there resolution for this pain that I’m in
Sitting all alone in this place
Even though we’re here face to face
There is nothing gone but there’s something wrong
Can’t you see that I’m stuck here underneath
And you make it hard to breathe
Take a look around and tell me what you see …

Ahh, Hanson … I’m so glad I’ll be able to see you a 6th time Wow, haven’t done this random of a post in a long time. Felt good. Now if only I could find the time and motivation to update my fanlistings, I’ll be good to go. And now I’m off to see Kiki’s Delivery Service with Bob … yay

Blah … why am I still tired and dizzy … wtf? Wanna go back to bed, but no, need to go marketing and maybe visit Joseph ’cause he keeps calling me.

By the way, “I Found Love” by the Kenny Wayne Shepard Band sounds awesome with lots of bass … especially when lying in bed not feeling so great

And for those of you who care and are bored, go visit the HansonForums.net, the most popular unofficial Hanson forums that I helped set up ’cause Nic was being annoying. Yay.

Fuck … at the beginning of fall semester I was 135, and now I’m at 147. How? I don’t get it. Must live on salad or something … and go to the gym tomorrow morning. Stupid freshman fifteen

On a better note, but boots just came, and they actually fit, so yay. I really hope I can sell my other ones, though … any takers?

I so don’t wanna go marketing .. *sigh* I just wanna lay around the house, update my fanlistings, go shopping, and wish I’d never heard of CWP. Happy May?

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I’m ashamed
There’s not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here …