Well, the Sugarcult concert isn’t so much of a certainty anymore. I got a ride back (my dad), but no ride there … and Jessica’s not sure if she wants to go anymore ’cause she has an exam at 8 the following morning. Blah. But oh well, I’m sure (hope) they’ll come again sometime. Stupid Sunday concerts

In other news … the whole Janet Jackson Superbowl thing? Had no idea until Doron and DC101 clued me in. Bet the whole stadium was whistling lol.

Aww, and today I learned that Shayne’s lyrics below were written for me — never had a full-fledged song before Speaking of him, he and Shaune are talking again, and that’s just yay. I even got to catch up with her on the phone, which was nice ’cause we definitely don’t talk as much as should. Gotta get on that. Also need to see what’s new with Kristen.

It’s weird, I’m suddenly happier than I have been in the recent past, yet whenever I read Brian’s blog this wave of guilt passes over me, like I need to make everything better or else something terrible will happen. And half of me wants to, but the other half looks back on all the bad times and things my friends have said and dominates my conscience, which I’m starting to believe is for the best. I mean, who knows what will happen in the future … but right now I’m straddling the line between depression and happiness, and the latter definitely feels better. I’m so glad my few friends have stuck with me through everything — without them I’d be lost. Just gotta keep remembering:

Shayne: Be happy hun …
Shayne: I know this is gonna be a rough period …
Shayne: But i’m here for you …
Shayne: And you know I’ll always be good to you