Gah, why the fuck am I so obsessed with Eddie? I mean, he’s not as clean as Brian … but he’s just so cute (especially when he kissed me goodnight after the parties). And goth. And I’ve been wanting forever to hook up with a goth guy … and now that I’m friends with one … I even told him last night that if it weren’t for Brian and that other girl who likes him, I probably would. Then he was like, “I can tell” … I guess spending the whole day with him will emanate that *sigh* Well, I dunno what to do, there’s no way in hell Brian would let me go without a huge fight, and I don’t think Eddie likes me in return. Then again, I just met him … but still … isn’t love at first sight supposed to happen sometime? I so wanna see him again.