Something I just wrote, inspired by a certain person that I don’t know what I’d do without:

MORE THAN WORDS

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my knight in shining armor
that rare shooting star
light at the end of the tunnel
which keeps me alive
through rain and snow
the sunniest of days
all coldness has vanished
my happiest moments are in his reach
and when we lay side by side
sharing a dream
it all seems unreal
i’d do anything to stay
’cause it’s the only way
the only person
and in forever
we’ll still be here

I have Duke’s Mixes songs stuck in my head, ’cause I was listening to the CD during study hall. Of course my Winamp had to be pissy, but I had Media Player too, so it was all good. Man some of those songs bring back memories.

Then I read more for S and L (geez the chapters are so frickin’ long) and started my Spanish test. Otherwise I just played on my computer ’cause I didn’t have too much work and it’s one thing I do to relax. Watched some videos and played with Media Player visualizations, which was cool … I think I found one I’m gonna keep.

Okay, and what’s the big deal with kama sutra? Geez.

Ow, my legs still hurt from frickin’ yoga, and I have to ride and go to yoga again tomorrow. Crap … I’m gonna die. I want the weekend. Or not … ’cause I have all this college stuff to do … but then again, there’s shopping and the gym … so maybe yay. But no Brian, which sucks. Speaking of that, I finished my Easter candy today … and I’m hoping I don’t get much this weekend, ’cause I’ve had way too much already, lol. I dunno.

Oh yeah, and I get to cross some things off my to-do list: senior slide show pictures, approve graduation dress, bibliography, set up JMU physical, and inform colleges. Yay. Anyway, it’s getting close to bedtime, so I’m out. Adios.

Okay, dinner was huge, and I’m still full … like 6 hours later, lol. I got a cheeseburger (with fries, a pickle, and vanilla coke) from Dank’s, and it was really good … just don’t think I’ll need to eat at all tomorrow. Which kinda sucks, ’cause there’s served lunch, but I’ll probably just have cereal or something. Yeah.

I stopped by the college office today to tell them about Madison, and also to set up an appt. to have my graduation dress approved. So yay for that. I also checked the Yearbook folder for semi-formal pictures, but I couldn’t find any. Hopefully tomorrow in class will be different. Umm … somehow I read the 60 pages for English tomorrow during study hall, as well as doing probability/statistics and anatomy. OMG, and the circulatory system lab is like 1000000 frickin’ pages long. I was like crap … so far I’ve done about two sections, and it isn’t due ’til May 2, but still. Crap, and speaking of deadlines, I have a philosophy paper due April 28 that he hasn’t talked to us about yet. Typical. But oh well, I can come up with 3 pages of BS. Not hard for philosophy … the problem is finding the time and motivation. Also gotta work on my bibiography for English, there’s another anatomy “quiz” on Friday (wtf?) … and probably something else that I can’t remember right now. Grr. School needs to eeeeennnnnnnndddd.

Had yoga today, which went well. Natalie’s joined the class, and she told me I was really good at it … and I was like um no, lol, but thanks Gotta ask the teacher if she teaches anywhere besides here (’cause I wanna keep doing yoga during the summer) … and also ask the health center if there’s a close place to get a physical for Madison. ‘Cause my current doctor’s building closed, and it’d be hard for my dad to find a new doctor and set up an appt. before June 2 (the health form deadline) … so hopefully they’d be able to help me out. Just not Dr. Griffith, lol.

Oh yeah, and semi. It was awesome. First off, I finally had the luxury of not being cheated on (*coughBradcough*) ’cause Brian’s nice like that. All my friends and teachers got to meet Brian, I think they liked him (Ms. McKibben definitely did, she told me today), and people kept telling us we looked great — I just hope the pictures come out the same, lol. And even though the music and noise level sucked, we got a dance in, so yay. Something good to end the year with

Anyway, gonna go surf randomly and wait for Brian to get online (or lack thereof) … and then call it a night around 12:30. Adios!

Aw Brian was so cute tonight — I called him after study hall and we were talking about college and degrees and stuff since I’d just sent in my deposit, and he was like, you should marry me, then we can do research together. LOL, and all I could say was yeah, ’cause talking about marriage is not a common topic But since I wanna be a doctor and he’s already doing his computer stuff — it’s possible. So yay … man, if that happens, I’d be the happiest girl on earth. Aww

Aww yay, semi-formal was great (and way better than last year)

Today was okay. Class was boring, as usual … English is gonna kill me next week. Great. Didn’t have riding or yoga or anything, so yay. Umm … then I took a shower and packed, went to yearbook, and finally headed to Brian’s. We went out to dinner at Applebee’s with his dad, Matt, and Megan, which was good, though I ate too much of my chicken pasta (like always). Fuck. Then we came back, went to the store, dropped his stuff at the cleaners, rented Ghostbusters and The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles movies, had ice cream, and then I basically left. And am about to fall asleep right now, but who cares. Umm … right, during all that Brian wanted to “romp” upstairs, but since my stomach was feeling gross and I was tired, I wasn’t completely up for it … which he took as a sign that I wasn’t interested (or something), and went back downstairs to read even though I was like wait … so of course I don’t go to sleep, I can’t ’cause I feel bad. So after about 10 minutes lying there like wtf and why can’t I do anything right, I go back downstairs, quietly sit on the couch, watch the sports news ’cause he wanted to see the Wizards score … also Real TV and Daria. Sometime around then he gets our pints of Ben & Jerry’s out, and is like, “are you sure you want some? You can say no, ya know, I’m not forcing you.” Of course relating to the previous little issue or whatever … I was like okay … enough with the making-Claire-feel-guilty thing. Yeah, I know it’s not that, but it definitely feels like it, ’cause I’m paranoid and shy and emotional, and that’s just me … but I guess I better get used to it. I don’t know wtf is wrong with me, but on the drive home I almost started crying, and was blasting Linkin Park.

Anyway, I can’t think anymore, I’m going to bed … hopefully forever. I’ll write more tomorrow if I have time.

Crap, I accidentally dropped my laptop a few days ago, and it landed on the side with my ethernet card, bent the little metal frame thing around the hole for the plug, and broke it (the plug won’t fit anymore) … so I gotta get a new one. Grr. But at least there’s one for like $15 (instead of the $80 one I had), so yay. ‘Cause its only gotta last me ’til June 6. Which needs to get here really fast, lol. Anyway, gotta switch computers and then sit through yearbook, so adios.