Everyone here is annoying me — they act like they’re my friends, then don’t even notice or include me in anything. No matter what they say, I know they’re gonna forget me after graduation. But that shouldn’t be a surprise, seeing as how it’s happened before (and not just here, but throughout my whole life). I don’t get it, is it me or them? I think I can say I have one stable friend here — Natalie. Even though we’re in different dorms and don’t see each other a lot, she’s not fake like some of the other people here (namely Erica, Meg, Leslie). Blah. But oh well, screw everyone else, I still have my people at home, and college will definitely be better (aka NEW ppl, and lots of them). So yeah. Anyway, gonna go shower now and start hw, so talk to everyone later. Adios!

Blah … definitely not eating Pop-Tarts anymore … I feel sick. Wonder if I should even go to lunch today, even though it’s served. Oh well, I can miss one and not get in trouble … and Ms. D’s here, so gotta go. Bye.

Kay nevermind, I figured out what’s “missing” … I need a concrete summer job, confidence to talk to ppl, and motivation to think and achieve. Or something. I dunno, that’s what I got from talking to Brian tonight … I just wish I wasn’t so unsure of everything. Or that everything I’m unsure of will go back to the way it was … but nm, that doesn’t make sense. Gah I just want the year to end and get out of here … it’s driving me crazy. I can’t do anything right anymore.

*sigh* Breathe …