I put the tag-board back up — so go sign it! Take pity ’cause I only have one lonely entry *sniff* LOL.

Ow. Body hurts, lol. Man, haven’t had that kinda workout in forever — but it was definitely fun ’cause I WON! Hehehe But anyway … I’m about to go to sleep … I’m currently download more Guns ‘N Roses and checking email … but after that, it’s lights out. So night night. And happy St. Patrick’s Day! I know Brian had a good one (do you have any green beer?)

Yay now there’s actually some sort of an agenda for NY. Awesome. Gonna be a good trip.

Umm today … was interesting. Got up around 10, went to the gym around 12 (with my own key!), went with Brian to the diner (I got a turkey club), his office (we played ping-pong and got free coke), Galyan’s (go rock-climbing), Kohl’s (he got jeans), his house (we watched the first Back To The Future movie), Blockbuster (for Pretty Woman), Giant (we got pizza materials and food), his house again (dinner and a movie), and then he drove me home. And now I’m here online even though I should be in bed ’cause I gotta drive him to work tomorrow (his car’ll be in the shop). But I’m not too worried — I’ve had 4 am nights and been fine at 7, lol *shrugs* Blah I’m so full from dinner … but oh well. Grr and Brad wants me to read some paper of his … so adios. Talk to everyone later.

Brian so doesn’t deserve me … what does he see in me? *cries* I’m so incompetent, always screw something up, etc. I feel so inferior compared to what he knows, has done, has taught me .. *sigh* … especially when he talks about his first girlfriend and how everything was so “perfect” with them, and how if he hadn’t been a dick, they’d probably still be together *cries* I don’t know about you, but that fuckin’ hurts. How can he make such a big deal about saying he loves me, then keep mentioning her and how it was so great? I wanna crawl into a hole and die … I wish he’d just tell me what he really thinks of me … then I can get out of his life, like he wants, and be done with it. Of course I’d cry like none other since I actually DO love him and it’d kill me if this ended, get all depressed and anti-social in the progress, but who cares. No one. I HATE THIS FUCKIN’ MIND SHIT … just go away. Go away and leave me alone so I can enjoy something for once *cries* WTF is wrong with me …

Ahh this is so nice — I’m sitting in my bed online (and listening to music). How awesome is that? I’m so glad my dad let us go wireless, lol, now I can become even more lazy But it’s still cool — mucho thanks to Brian for configuring it all, too Yay.

Anyway, today sucked until I finally managed to escape from school. It took me a minute to comprehend that yes, I did have classes this morning, lol. It seems so far away. I almost fell asleep in budgeting … all we did was finish this boring video about how to “finance your dreams.” Woop de doo. English was the usual … we analyzed more poems. Geez, does the book ever stop? Cooking was cool, we didn’t have time to make a full meal, so we made a snack: smoothies, Asian pears, mangoes, and Tostitos and salsa. It was yummy. Then there was the presentation of the 2003 - 2004 curriculum, but I didn’t have to go! It was my first official sign that graduation is inching closer. Yay. But it still needs to hurry up. So after cooking I was free for like 7 hours lol, so I packed, went online, took a shower, and got my room ready for inspection. Which took like 3 hours total, the rest I spent online working on the *wonderful* layout you now see You like? The other two presentations, teen groups and Interim finale, took too frickin’ long (I didn’t leave school ’til like 9:50). Teen groups were okay, some had food (brownies, cookies, cinnamon rolls, pretzels) and interesting info, which was good. Mine (about instant messaging, downloading, and hacking), of course, didn’t win, but at least I got to experience Katie’s teeny tiny Sony laptop, lol. I could barely see the icons Then the Interim finale was annoying. The only groups worth listening to were self-defense and Mr. Mohler’s music class, who both did little performances onstage. The rest just monotonly read from printed internet articles … it was painful. And then we got the Interim newspaper, which had mostly pictures of sophomores ’cause that was who the class was mostly comprised of. Typical. But screw that, it’s break, I’m free, and I don’t need to think about school for 2 1/2 weeks. Yay!

Well, I’m getting sorta tired, so I’m gonna check email and then go to bed. Adios! Oh, and I saw Julie today! It was so good to see her again — and finally meet Jayden — he’s so cute. I still can’t believe she’s a mother now, it’s crazy. I just hope everything goes well for her.

Also, happy 20th birthday to Taylor! I almost forgot, lol. See Brian, I’m not obsessed

Check it out, new layout! It’s not 100% finished, but this is the gist of it. What do you think? Does it look okay in resolutions other than 800 x 600? Lemme know, and comment if you have any suggestions.

Written on March 12th, 2003 @ 9:46 pm

OMG why is the net so slow? It’s driving me crazy, come on people, I don’t need to wait 10 minutes for Blogger to load an icon *sigh* It’s been like this since this afternoon, you’d think it would’ve gone away. But no. Of course not. Either Verizon or this school sucks. More like both.

Anyway, tonight was really uneventful. Finished my English homework (reading) in like 20 minutes, read some of my philosophy spring break book, did laundry, got ready for bed, and now I’m here. How exciting. It was boring, and it still is since the technology here sucks. Grr. Why can’t I be home now where everything is functional? Well … almost 24 hours ’til freedom. Can’t wait … hurry up tomorrow.

WTF. And now the internet’s down. And IE is frozen. Just great. What am I supposed to DO all night? I guess call Brian later … or read … but that’s it *sigh again* I’m so pissed.