Brian so doesn’t deserve me … what does he see in me? *cries* I’m so incompetent, always screw something up, etc. I feel so inferior compared to what he knows, has done, has taught me .. *sigh* … especially when he talks about his first girlfriend and how everything was so “perfect” with them, and how if he hadn’t been a dick, they’d probably still be together *cries* I don’t know about you, but that fuckin’ hurts. How can he make such a big deal about saying he loves me, then keep mentioning her and how it was so great? I wanna crawl into a hole and die … I wish he’d just tell me what he really thinks of me … then I can get out of his life, like he wants, and be done with it. Of course I’d cry like none other since I actually DO love him and it’d kill me if this ended, get all depressed and anti-social in the progress, but who cares. No one. I HATE THIS FUCKIN’ MIND SHIT … just go away. Go away and leave me alone so I can enjoy something for once *cries* WTF is wrong with me …