Yeah, so this layout is more along the lines of all the other personal sites out there, but hey, I wanted to try it. Lemme know what you think in the comments or somewhere. And yay, Brian and I are going to the Renn Faire this weekend — it’s gonna be cool Anyway, I g2g now ’cause I gots stuff to do, so bye! And happy almost Friday.

Okay, well I’m a little better sick-wise … but not totally. Hopefully I will be by tomorrow when I have to ride again. And I’m gonna try to go to bed early tonight, since I was up ’til 1 and woke up at 6. I think all I have to do tonight is vocab, Spanish (of course … there’s no end to Spanish), and something else. Math, I think. But that’ll be easy. So yay. Anyway, I’m gonna go back to the dorm now, so adios

*sigh* Okay. Well today was not good.

First of all, I’m still sick, so I spent the morning in the infirm and missed the first two periods. Then I sit through double English, which isn’t anything interesting. Lunch was okay, and then I find out I have a student council meeting, which was also pretty boring. All we did was talk about Natalia and uniforms — and didn’t really get anywhere. I almost forget about my riding lesson, but since I didn’t feel well I leave Ms. Laurie a message saying I won’t be there. I hope she got it.

Umm … then I go online and try to do some BR reading at the same time, but so far I’m only halfway done. And I still have my stupid Spanish paper to write … blah. I hate having a lot of work and being sick … ’cause no matter what side you work on, the other gets worse Then I went back to the dorm and took a shower and did laundry, and now I’m here. Fun fun. I can’t wait ’til Friday … this week isn’t starting off well.

What else … oh yeah, Brad IMed me, and was like, “since you were complaining about me never telling you anything, I will now — I was talking to Neusha and we’re officially going out now.” I was like okay, big deal, weren’t you before? He was like yeah, but it was casual. Or something. Whatever. He goes from saying he still loves me to “it’s time to get serious with Neusha.” WTF? He doesn’t make sense.

And “Seein’ Red” by Unwritten Law is playing … good song. It fits my mood. Grr, I just want this day to be over. So I can go to sleep and forget about everything *sigh* Oh well … guess I can’t have everything I want. Anyway, I’m going to dinner soon, so talk to everyone later.

Oh yeah, and two years ago today I saw Hanson in concert in Philly. That was cool except going alone and having to sit right next to the wall of theater.

I got my senior pictures today. They’re okay. Out of the 6, only 2 were good. 1 was alright. Except they didn’t tell me (well, I overheard) until afterwards that you were allowed 20 negatives (not 6 like I thought) per session, so I could’ve had some of the pictures redone that I didn’t like as much. But oh well … the $60 (ouch) of pictures that I bought should be okay. And Dad and everyone else can decide who gets the ones that I don’t put in the yearbook.

And I think I’m definitely getting sick Being cold all day today didn’t help, either. Like, my head and throat hurt a little. *sigh* This is what I hate about school. And I’m really not looking forward to writing a 3-page Spanish paper tomorrow night, due Monday. First period. Someone shoot me. I only have like 1/2 page done, and since I can’t do anything right it’ll take me like all of study hall to do a page. Excluding the whole presentation part *sigh* I need to stop procrastinating and worrying about college crap and certain people. Or something.

Umm … let’s see, tomorrow I have to go to the store/CVS, pack, and then do whatever. Maybe see Brian. And then go back to school. Great *shivers* I don’t wanna be fuckin’ sick. I always get stupid colds like this from school and they last forever … grr. I should probably take whatever gross medicine we have before bed.

And is it just me, or is it a totally normal thing to wear tank tops and flip flops when it’s hot? I think so, but some people think otherwise ’cause it’s “ugly” and makes me look 14. I don’t get it, no one else has a problem with it. And I’m not gonna go change my whole wardrobe or something ’cause of it. Even if I wanted to, no way my dad would let me. I personally think I dress fine, and I *try* to be different — but I guess my version of “different” isn’t formal or nice enough. Sue me. And maybe this wasn’t meant to be a big deal, but it’s kinda hard to tell when the person talking barely shows a difference between being serious and joking. Speaking of which — when they make a comment about some girl being hot or flirting with them, even though they say they’re kidding, it’s still not something their girlfriend likes to hear. I mean, geez, put yourself in my place.

And why is stupid Outlook Express not download my folders? Or AIM loading my stalker thing? *sigh* Okay, well I’m gonna go to bed … and hope that I feel better tomorrow. And the previous paragraph, ignore it. It’s just one of my rants that won’t matter anymore in 24 hours.

Remind me to never drive a few hours after having 3 Bacardi Silvers. Okay, so I thought I was fine, and I was until changing lanes coming home. I was in the left lane trying to get to the right to exit, and I look to check my blind spot, and I dunno how, but for some reason when I look back at the road I’m halfway onto the shoulder headed for the subway tracks. I freak out and swerve back into my lane, and the rest of the drive is okay. But yeah, that part was kinda scary ’cause I’d never done it before … it just kinda happened. Anyway, I’m cold (lol) and tired, so I’m going to bed — and definitely sleeping in. Yay. Weekends rock. Senior pictures tomorrow!

Oh yeah … and I suck at geography. It took me like 15 minutes to think of the freakin’ capitals of freakin’ England and France. WTF? How dumb can I be? Those are like the most well-known places in the world

And umm … my dad just came down to see if I was here. He never gets up this late to check on me … it’s like 2 am. Weird. Oh well … adios for now.

I have XP! Hehe, it’s cool

Some 9/11 poems I got that I liked:

If I Knew

If I knew it would be the last time
That I’d see you fall asleep
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord, your soul to keep

If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back for one more

If I knew it would be the last time
I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise
I would videotape each action and word
So I could play them back day after day

If I knew it would be the last time
I could spare an extra minute
To stop and say “I love you”
Instead of assuming you would know I do

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day
Well I’m sure you’ll have so many more
So I can let just this one slip away

For surely there’s always tomorrow
To make up for an oversight
And we always get a second chance
To make everything just right

There will always be another day
To say “I love you”
And certainly there’s another chance
To say our “anything I can do?”

But just in case I might be wrong
And today is all I get
I’d like to say how much I love you
And I hope we never forget

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone
Young or old alike
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight

So if you’re waiting for tomorrow
Why not do it today
For if tomorrow never comes
You’ll surely regret the day

That you didn’t take extra time
For a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone
What turned out to be their one last wish

So hold your loved ones close today
And whisper in their ear
Tell them how much you love them
And that you’ll always hold them dear

Take time to say “I’m sorry”
“Please forgive me,” “thank you,” or “it’s okay”
And if tomorrow never comes
You’ll have no regrets about today

The Little Things

Too often we don’t realize
What we have until it is gone
Too often we wait too late to say
“I’m sorry — I was wrong”

Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones
We hold dearest to our hearts
And we allow foolish things
To tear our lives apart

Far too many times we let
Unimportant things into our minds
And then it’s usually too late
To see what made us blind

So be sure that you let people know
How much they mean to you
Take that time to say the words
Before your time is through

Be sure that you appreciate
Everything you’ve got
And be thankful for the little things in life
That mean a lot

And tomorrow’s Friday. Yay! Hopefully I have enough gas in my car to get to the Citgo station, hehe.