Woah … tonight was pretty cool. After Brian and I came back from dinner, we talk with my dad for a little, and then we decide to work on SAT stuff, ’cause I apparently suck at that. My dad gets out his box of college stuff, and in there I find a letter to Ms. Bonner, answering questions of hers I think. But it basically just degraded me … it was like, yeah, Claire has no motivation to do well academically, even with bribery. Um what? Yeah I do, I happen to like certain subjects … and that added to everything else blatantly saying I was dumb, I felt like shit. And his whole take on the reasons behind my Yorktown failure were untrue … I guess part of it was ’cause of my mom, but it wasn’t the bulk of it. And since when was it doctor’s orders that Ross and I shouldn’t see her? I thought it was just a random decision of my dad’s. But hmm, I guess not. I shouldn’t be surprised, though, I’m always the last to know things. Figures.

But anyway, then Brian shows me how to do a few problems I missed on the PSAT, and I actually understood them. And knew that I did, and if I reviewed what we did before taking it again, I’d remember it and use it. Usually, if it was someone else, I’d kind of get it, but then just smile and nod about the rest ’cause I didn’t wanna piss them off. That probably sounds bad … but yeah. It’s also better ’cause I like spending time with Brian, he’s not some random teacher I’ve been told to see and have to drag myself to. After he left I was like woah … this is kinda cool, I know something. And even though I got frusturated at first, I’m glad I do. How come no one else offered to do stuff like this? Now I’m glad that Brad broke up with me … ’cause this wouldn’t have happened otherwise, and I’d still be sitting here paranoid, wondering what else he’d discovered to do that didn’t need to involve me *sigh* But yeah.

A new layout will coming soon ’cause I have Photoshop now, and it rocks. It’s so much better than the Home Edition … you don’t understand, lol. I found this song by System of a Down called “Snowblind,” and I love the lyrics. I almost used them for the new WNC layout, but figured I’d wait and use them for this site. ‘Cause they’re a more personal-sounding set. Anyway, well I’m gonna go now before it gets too late and get some way-overdue reading done. God knows I need it. So bye!