*sigh* I knew it. I can never be happy for more than a day. It’s just not possible.

Okay, well tonight I went with Erica and Brad to see Sister Hazel. Don’t get me wrong, the music was awesome, but then about halfway through, the lead singer guy says that he wants a funnel cake … and Brad, having witnessed the same scenario the previous night with the Gin Blossoms, decided he wanted to be the one who actually bought them the funnel cake. So yeah, he goes and does that, and the band’s all happy … but what kinda pissed me off was that he didn’t come back from the front row after handing the guy the food. At first I felt this small jolt of superior-ness since I knew the person that had made their funnel cake dreams come true … but then felt like shit ’cause he technically ditched Erica and I for the rest of the show. I think they played 2 or 3 more songs afterwards … one of which was “Your Winter,” basically my favorite Sister Hazel song … and he didn’t even come back for that. Not like he knows I like it, but still … it’s a slow song … don’t most people want someone to hold while listening to it? Part of me wants to believe that he had to stay ’cause of all the people blocking his escape route, but the rest wants to make up stories about him purposely staying to ignore me … or something. And it didn’t help that every other row of seats had 2 or 3 couples, just leaning against each other … looking totally in love, while my “significant other” is up front being crazy.

Though he did hug me a few times during the course of the night (half of which were initiated by me) … which I guess is good … but also isn’t. He also didn’t kiss me goodnight … he was like, yeah, I don’t want you to get my sore throat … umm, yeah, you haven’t cared about that before *sigh* But who knows … I hate guys … especially when the only thing they seem to bring into your life is confusion. And what was up with him talking to Erica like twice as much as me?

Oh yeah … and I think Louie likes me … great. Just what I need. He’s an awesome friend … but I’m so sick of having multiple people like me, and having to turn them down or whatever — trust me, you might think it’s flattering, but after awhile, it just gets really annoying and bothersome. When it gets down to it, I’m in this never-ending circle of rollercoaster emotions. Be glad you’re not a part of it.

Woah, dude! OMG, today has been awesome — it’s so making up for all those crappy school days.

Okay, first of all, school is finally freakin’ over. I am so relieved, it’s like this huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Second, I somehow have positioned stuff in my room to make it look really cool — I think either the “new” lamp, necklace cork board, or plasma ball did the trick. And it’s gonna look even cooler once I vacuum it and get it all cleaned up … ’cause it needs it, haha.

And then, while I’m in the middle of that, I head to the computer room to put away some pens/pencils and to check my messages, and Brad sends me one, so I’m talking to him, and then Shaune’s friend Louie IMs me and is like hey, are you busy tonight? I say no, and he’s like, wanna come get coffee tonight with my friends and I? LOL, sure! So I call Dad and he’s okay with it, and Brad’s like just don’t let them hit on you … lol, right

And so I go to Courthouse (after being stupid and spending 15 minutes walking around the damn place trying to find the coffee shop … when it was right there … I’m blind). Yeah. And so once I know where I’m going, I only have to wait for like 2 minutes ’til everyone comes. Once we’ve all hung out and talked for a bit, I realize that half of them are my old friends from Yorktown! Talk about a coincidence … how often does that happen with random people you meet from the internet? LOL. Plus, Louie lives like 2 blocks from me … how come I haven’t seen him around? He did look familiar though. And Sean is my old punk friend … he was like, ya know, you look really familiar. Hehe. So yeah … that little surprise was much-needed. I got chai tea, too, which is becoming my new favorite (like Shaune).

Speaking of which, Shaune’s at the beach right now for a week — I wanna go! But oh well, if I did I wouldn’t get to see Sister Hazel tomorrow. And who cares if they’re “old,” their songs “Beautiful Thing,” “Your Winter,” and “All For You” rock. I demand you download them now lol.

Well, I’m off to bed … hopefully tomorrow will be like today

Okay, so the thing with Brad is mostly over now. Quicker than I thought, but oh well. I just hope I made the right choice by believing him. Anyway, I g2g to the senior slide show soon … but yeah.

We just had a big thunderstorm, and it was cool ’cause all of sudden this huge flash/sound of lightning/thunder hits really close and makes me jump, and I’m like yay. LOL.

Know what else? I “black-ified” my computer, hehe … I’ll put a screen capture up soon. It’s cool And I dunno what else to say, except exams are finally over, and I have 2 days left!

Also, look what Brad sent me about the whole thing in the previous post:

I’d like to quote jai: “There comes a point in paranoia, where no matter what you say, you’re wrong.” If you don’t believe me now, why should you believe ANYTHING i say? And if you can’t believe anything i say, do you not believe that i feel the same way about you that you do me?”

OMG omg omg … from Jose :

apperantly brad was hitting on her since when i dont know , he has been calling her to invite her to places, this tot my knowlege sounds like it happen durring the time he wasnt talking much to u (but that part i dont know for sure) last time he called jen was last week when she told him to plz stop calling her and that she had a bf he IM her today telling her that he was thinking on calling her yesterday

*cries*

Today is Brad and I’s 5-month anniversary. Watch him again not get online. Typical.

Well, Brad has again disappeared. He hasn’t been on in like 2 days. God, if he keeps doing this, I’m really thinking about ending it with him. Or at least “taking a break.” I clearly told him after the first time that if he randomly goes away like this, to call me or something, but does he do it? No! I’m sick of always waiting around for him, planning my life around when he might be online. Am I pathetic or what? Do all guys do this? *sigh* Either they don’t call, or call too much. Why can’t there be a balance?

Not that there’s anything else I could be doing since I’m always stuck at school, but then again if I were at home I’d probably be doing the same thing. Maybe Shaune’s right about him — I don’t deserve him and could do better. Man, I hate saying that … ’cause it just kills everything he’s mentioned about marriage, etc. … but yeah. I guess it’s better to end it now than later … *cries* As the saved email of his to Ashley is named … what a bitch.