Man … life is crazy again. Okay, well two nights ago, Brad and I are talking online, and I say that I’m gonna miss doing stuff with him. But he’s like no … on the outside we’re friends, but if we really want to, we can be more than that at times. I’m skeptical, ’cause wasn’t he just saying that he was too busy for me? He’s like, hey, well I’ll try to call from work tomorrow (didn’t happen, but he called when he got home), ’cause we can hang out and stuff while Jai and Will go buy booze.

So, me missing him like none other, says okay, and the next day I go to his house at like 5:30, and a few minutes after I get there, his friends leave for like, 10/15 minutes max. At first we’re just making small talk and eating a can of pineapple since we’d need the can later that night, and after that, we go and sit on the sofa — except with me in his lap, and I’m thinking uhh … weird … yet it feels good to be like this. Then he gives me a kiss, his friends come back, and the rest of the night is uneventful, save for setting off our $60 worth of fireworks (lol), ordering pizza online, exploding lighters, and the case of Jai’s missing glasses.

When we lit one of our many Lightning Flashes, he held up a plastic bag to shield my eyes from the light, and proceeded to kiss my forehead. Also, when Will and Jai were out in the street for a few minutes checking cars for glasses, Brad leans up against the truck, pulls me to him, gives me a hug, kisses me on the forehead again, and then on the lips … and I’m just like *sigh* … I am so gonna miss this. ‘Cause he’s like the perfect kisser, everything feels perfect when I hug him … and yeah. Are we supposed to be apart if I feel like this and if he does stuff when we’re supposedly “just friends?” Fuck, guys are too confusing. Jai never found his glasses, either …

And for anyone who cares, I slept over at Shaune’s last night, had like half a cup of milk and Bacardi mixed together, but it sucked ’cause that stuff still haunts me from the other party, so whenever I have it I feel like I’m gonna throw up. We watched American Beauty (yay!) and Go, though I fell asleep at the beginning of Go, lol. We also went to Harris Teeter at like 3 am (complete with Shaune decked out in her graduation stuff), and got Willi some sushi. And yeah … that’s pretty much it.

Shaune and I also walked our usual Georgetown route tonight … got harassed more than usual (fuckin’ perverts) … and found an awesome ice cream place, hehe. Well, gonna go now ’cause I’m freakin’ tired, so talk to all you people later — adios. I’m seeing Erica tomorrow, too, so wonder what we’ll end up doing … neither of us has any ideas *shrugs*