*sigh* I feel sick. I just ate this chocolate strawberry ice cream thing … when I was already full from Chili’s. Grr … I gotta stop giving in to everything. Especially dealing with you-know-who. And it’s crazy … it’s not even midnight, and to me it feels like it’s 2 am. I think I’m going to sleep soon.

I applied for 2 more jobs today — Wet Seal and PacSun, just ’cause they were hiring and I was pissed at Hot Topic for not hiring and Sam Goody for never doing anything with my many applications. Watch them not call me. Again. I swear, I’m cursed … I don’t get it. I mean, how hard is it to get a job at a freakin’ music or clothing store? *sigh again*

I’m also trying to think of stuff to do on my birthday. And concerts are out, which were my main hope. The only one I’m interested in and have heard of is Ozzfest, but my dad won’t let me go. Just ’cause it’s hard rock. Ooh … must not be introduced to that. Yeah, right. So, besides fireworks on the 4th, my mind is blank. Don’t have the energy for a real party, don’t wanna have a boring sleepover. Want Brad to be able to come, but also don’t wanna celebrate 2 weeks after the official date. That’s real cool. Oh yeah, and I almost forgot that Julie and I have to go to the beach sometime. Fuck, when and where is that gonna happen? Especially with Dad and Ross suddenly deciding to bop on over to Seattle one weekend. Right. They need to make up their mind vacation-wise.

Crap, my eye itches. Stupid allergy to cats, which are sitting 2 feet from me. Oh yeah, it’s supposed to be like 97 degrees tomorrow. Yay ’cause I like the heat (to an extent), but nay if I’m gonna be stuck inside all day with nothing to do … I hope Brad has time to see me. And if not, I hope someone does. Namely Shaune, ’cause I think she gets back tomorrow … but will probably be busy with unpacking, etc. … so yeah *sneezes*

I got a Linkin Park poster for my room today, along with a $0.99 MTV/TRL choker! The poster’s black and red and cool — and I’m proud ’cause it’s the first real non-Hanson poster I’ve bought since like 1997. Haha. Go me.

And why has Brad not mentioned our 1-year anniversary since the 2 or so weeks before it at school? Is it really that easy to forget? What happened to dinner at Memphis, DDR, and a movie at Ballston?