*sigh* I knew it. I can never be happy for more than a day. It’s just not possible.

Okay, well tonight I went with Erica and Brad to see Sister Hazel. Don’t get me wrong, the music was awesome, but then about halfway through, the lead singer guy says that he wants a funnel cake … and Brad, having witnessed the same scenario the previous night with the Gin Blossoms, decided he wanted to be the one who actually bought them the funnel cake. So yeah, he goes and does that, and the band’s all happy … but what kinda pissed me off was that he didn’t come back from the front row after handing the guy the food. At first I felt this small jolt of superior-ness since I knew the person that had made their funnel cake dreams come true … but then felt like shit ’cause he technically ditched Erica and I for the rest of the show. I think they played 2 or 3 more songs afterwards … one of which was “Your Winter,” basically my favorite Sister Hazel song … and he didn’t even come back for that. Not like he knows I like it, but still … it’s a slow song … don’t most people want someone to hold while listening to it? Part of me wants to believe that he had to stay ’cause of all the people blocking his escape route, but the rest wants to make up stories about him purposely staying to ignore me … or something. And it didn’t help that every other row of seats had 2 or 3 couples, just leaning against each other … looking totally in love, while my “significant other” is up front being crazy.

Though he did hug me a few times during the course of the night (half of which were initiated by me) … which I guess is good … but also isn’t. He also didn’t kiss me goodnight … he was like, yeah, I don’t want you to get my sore throat … umm, yeah, you haven’t cared about that before *sigh* But who knows … I hate guys … especially when the only thing they seem to bring into your life is confusion. And what was up with him talking to Erica like twice as much as me?

Oh yeah … and I think Louie likes me … great. Just what I need. He’s an awesome friend … but I’m so sick of having multiple people like me, and having to turn them down or whatever — trust me, you might think it’s flattering, but after awhile, it just gets really annoying and bothersome. When it gets down to it, I’m in this never-ending circle of rollercoaster emotions. Be glad you’re not a part of it.