Oh man … the concert rocked! TMBG are so awesome, I am definitely going to their next one around here. There was even this cute guy standing next to me, and we smiled at each other a few times, but then he disappeared, so I was like oh well, fuck it. And then Louie didn’t want the XL Minute Maid shirt that he caught, so he gave me that, lol. And I also caught one of the many confetti strands that fell during one of TMBG’s last songs. Man, they played for like 1 1/2 hours, but it felt like 10 minutes to me, haha. They were just so cool, now I know why they’re one of Brad’s favorite bands. Speaking of which, Spiraling (previously You Were Spiraling) were there too, and according to Brad’s MP3 page, they’re one of his big influences … so yeah, I’m guessing that he’s really hating his NM trip right about now, haha.

Aww, and when I got back home, I saw that Greg had left me a message, and he was like, hey babe … eh. He said he’d get back on, but apparently didn’t … *shrugs*. Then after the concert, we met up with Louie and his friend again, walked like 20 blocks to Soho, got some food there, and then took the metro back. And before heading home, we randomly went to Harris Teeter and drove around in Shaune’s car for like 30 minutes … haha, it was great. I now love DC Sessions, am so going to the Sister Hazel concert on the 20th … and maybe the 2 Skinnee Js and Concrete Blonde ones, too As Shaune would say, rock the fuck on.

Like the new layout? I do too. LOL. Well, I’m about to head off to the They Might Be Giants concert, so I’ll post later and fill you guys in on everything, okay? Adios!

Woah … I didn’t post in here last night? LOL, oh well. Well, last night I went to Jaxx and saw 4 awesome bands with Willi and Shaune — got a couple demo CDs, too, so that was cool. And this morning I emailed one of the guys from modeSeven (one of the bands) about a party he was having, except he later told me it was canceled ’cause not enough people wanted to go. Haha. But oh well … hopefully there will be more. And then I emailed one of the guys from Drop (another band) for MP3s or a demo CD, and he replied with a link to a new MP3 they’d just posted, so that was cool. I love the song, too … it’s called “Blind Me” and I think it’s awesome.

And then today … well, today was boring. I got woken up around 10 by the freakin’ repair guy who came (damn loud drills), so was pissed about that. Stayed in my room and read ’til about 1, then went online for a few hours and got pissed at how slow it was. Downloaded some more Seraphim Shock songs (yay) and chatted … and yeah, that’s basically it. And insert going to the store in there somewhere

I’ve eaten so much though, it’s not funny, haha. Okay, when I got up I had a ham and cheese sandwich with chips, a pear as a snack, and for dinner, two TV dinners (dunno why), 2 cinnamon roll things, and a BBQ chicken sandwich with bacon. Ugh … I guess it’s good ’cause I’m finally full, but bad ’cause I usually don’t eat that much. Blah.

I met another cool guy from MatchMaker, though. His name’s Rob, he goes to UMD, and has freakin’ strong arms, lol. He’s also in a wheelchair from diving into a pool with no water (he was drunk) … but he’s really nice, and likes to flirt, haha … he’s already calling me “sweety” and stuff *shrugs*

Talked to Greg, too, basically about what to do when we meet. We’re thinking about either Tysons or Springfield … but Tysons doesn’t have movies, so screw that. Maybe Ballston. I feel bad for him having to drive the hour down here, though … And Jose apparently wants to go dancing with me … wtf? LOL … I didn’t know he liked to dance. But oh well … and who knows about Brad … he’s never on, and will be gone for 2 weeks starting Saturday. I wonder if we’ll ever get back together. Though I think (emphasis on think) it’d be awesome if we did … screw him for always making me freakin’ paranoid. Greg said he’d never cheat on me, though … man, it’d be weird if I went out with him … very weird. I’m so not over Brad … gah … what’s with me and all these guys? I guess I really hate loneliness *sigh*

Today was okay. Hung out with Erica at Fair Oaks, had lunch at Sbarro, walked around for like an hour, and I got a semi-cool fiber optic light thing for my room. LOL, I was about to kick myself when I found a way cooler one online for like $10 more. Grr. Oh well … maybe I’ll get it anyway. I also cleaned up my room a little — gave Ross the stereo without the CD player (lol), and just basically rearranged my shelf, picture area, dresser, and bedside table. And draped my “extra” disco ball strands around my windows, just to get them out of the way. Yeah

I’ve been downloading like non-stop today, too … finally got enough songs for my “Soft Rockin’” CD, so made that before going to the mall. And I need like 3 more songs for my hard rock CD … speaking of which, I found the most incredible song (thanks Ashley!) — it’s called “Some Sick Dream” by Seraphim Shock — it really describes me, and the I love the guy’s voice. I think it’s a British goth band *sigh* And I wonder if I’ll see Brad before he leaves on Saturday … tomorrow would be a good time …

My song right now … “Where Have You Been” by Reel Big Fish:

You called me up last night in tears
And said you missed me after all these years
But I’ve been waiting here so long
I’ve gotten over it since you’ve been gone

You called me late last night again
And said you’re finished with your new boyfriend
Asked if you could come back home
So sorry that you left me all alone, well

You say you love me
You love me again, but if you love me
Where have you been

You say you need me more than anyone else
Well go to hell
Where have you been

You showed up at my door today
And said my friend why do you push me away
And life with him was just so dull
But what we had was something wonderful, well

You say you love me
You love me again, but if you love me
Where have you been

You say you need me more than anyone else
Well go to hell
Where have you been

No way, you wish
I don’t need this
What makes you think I’d ever want you again

Yeah right, as if
I don’t need this
What makes you think I’d ever want you again
Again

You called me late last night again
And said you’re finished with your new boyfriend
Asked if you could come back home
So sorry that you left me all alone, well

You say you love me
You love me again, but if you love me
Where have you been

You say you need me more than anyone else
Well go to hell
Where have you been

You say you love me
You love me again, but if you love me
Where have you been (but if you love me)
Where have you been (but if you love me)
Where have you been (but if you love me)
Where have you been

Man … life is crazy again. Okay, well two nights ago, Brad and I are talking online, and I say that I’m gonna miss doing stuff with him. But he’s like no … on the outside we’re friends, but if we really want to, we can be more than that at times. I’m skeptical, ’cause wasn’t he just saying that he was too busy for me? He’s like, hey, well I’ll try to call from work tomorrow (didn’t happen, but he called when he got home), ’cause we can hang out and stuff while Jai and Will go buy booze.

So, me missing him like none other, says okay, and the next day I go to his house at like 5:30, and a few minutes after I get there, his friends leave for like, 10/15 minutes max. At first we’re just making small talk and eating a can of pineapple since we’d need the can later that night, and after that, we go and sit on the sofa — except with me in his lap, and I’m thinking uhh … weird … yet it feels good to be like this. Then he gives me a kiss, his friends come back, and the rest of the night is uneventful, save for setting off our $60 worth of fireworks (lol), ordering pizza online, exploding lighters, and the case of Jai’s missing glasses.

When we lit one of our many Lightning Flashes, he held up a plastic bag to shield my eyes from the light, and proceeded to kiss my forehead. Also, when Will and Jai were out in the street for a few minutes checking cars for glasses, Brad leans up against the truck, pulls me to him, gives me a hug, kisses me on the forehead again, and then on the lips … and I’m just like *sigh* … I am so gonna miss this. ‘Cause he’s like the perfect kisser, everything feels perfect when I hug him … and yeah. Are we supposed to be apart if I feel like this and if he does stuff when we’re supposedly “just friends?” Fuck, guys are too confusing. Jai never found his glasses, either …

And for anyone who cares, I slept over at Shaune’s last night, had like half a cup of milk and Bacardi mixed together, but it sucked ’cause that stuff still haunts me from the other party, so whenever I have it I feel like I’m gonna throw up. We watched American Beauty (yay!) and Go, though I fell asleep at the beginning of Go, lol. We also went to Harris Teeter at like 3 am (complete with Shaune decked out in her graduation stuff), and got Willi some sushi. And yeah … that’s pretty much it.

Shaune and I also walked our usual Georgetown route tonight … got harassed more than usual (fuckin’ perverts) … and found an awesome ice cream place, hehe. Well, gonna go now ’cause I’m freakin’ tired, so talk to all you people later — adios. I’m seeing Erica tomorrow, too, so wonder what we’ll end up doing … neither of us has any ideas *shrugs*

Woah. Okay, so I was online last night, and Brad comes on and we start talking. I don’t know the exact time, but I’m pretty sure we were talking for like 2 or 3 hours … and I was like, umm what’s this, ’cause usually my exes never talk to me again. But it was weird, at one point he’s like, you know what Claire? Keep smiling, ’cause you’re really pretty when you smile. Aw. And if I ever needed to be held/kissed/whatever, he’d be there. Then why the fuck did we break up in the first place? He’s like, yeah, well, we can be friends with benefits. Hmm. It was just surprising — I guess he wasn’t kidding when he said that if we ever broke up, he’d still be my close friend.

I just realized that that conversation with Brad is only about the 2nd or 3rd one that’s happened at like 3 am. And the times before also occurred when we weren’t going out. Weird … but oh well. It’s probably just a coincidence.

Also … guess what. This guy Greg from Matchmaker IMed me last night … and well … I think we’re gonna meet in about 3 weeks. I told him that I just wanted to be friends ’cause I’d just been broken up with and stuff, and it’s good ’cause he feels the same. So far all I know about him is that he’s 20, is adopted, would never cheat on me if I was his girlfriend (umm), and lives in Frederick, MD (about an hour away). And when me meet, he offered to drive all the way down here, just to make things easier for me. Geez. I don’t get it, the second I change my status to single on MatchMaker, people start wanting to go out with me. And I’m not some model, I could never be a Britney or a Julia Stiles or whatever … yeah. It’s crazy — stuff like that baffles me.