OMG, I’m so pissed. Brad hasn’t gotten on since Sunday night/Monday morning, which he said he would do. And then when I saw him over the weekend, he said he was sorry for not being on a lot, but then what does he just go and keep doing? *sigh* WTF? I’m so annoyed with him right now. He better have a damn good excuse. Hopefully there’s nothing wrong, but I know there isn’t … my sentimental side is majorly getting overridden by my angry one right now. And it’s not like he doesn’t know my number and can’t call, either … I’m sure he has at least 5 minutes free each day to pick up the phone *sigh* God. I feel like punching something. Or going to sleep, trying to get warm in the freakin’ cold May weather, and never wake up.

Bah … I so don’t wanna be sick right now. This is the only time I wish I hadn’t been with Brad, ’cause I think he gave it to me, lol. But oh well … dude, I got a plasma ball for $15 yesterday! Isn’t that awesome? ‘Cause they’re usually like $40 or $50 I think. So yay Even though I now owe the Asians $14 (’cause I got a cool necklace, too), I’m happy … ’cause Asia has cool merchandise, lol *sigh* I should probably be going to bed soon, even though I’m not really tired. I know it’s the only way I might feel better … so yeah. Night everyone.

By the way, it pisses me off that they aren’t offering Astronomy next year — since when are there not enough people to take it? Grr … and I’m not really interestered in the other classes that are offered … but I HAVE to take something, so I finally settled on microbiology for the fall and anatomy for the spring. Fun fun (yeah, right) … even though my dad says it’ll look good on college transcripts *shrugs* I’ll survive somehow …

Yeah, Brad hasn’t been on since yesterday morning. And usually he’s on at least after study hall *sigh* Here we go again. Me getting depressed ’cause he’s never on, so I feel like he’s avoiding me (he also doesn’t call), and then me acting all happy when he is on ’cause I feel guilty about doubting him. I have no real reason to get mad at him, other than the fact that I don’t know what he’s doing all those hours I spend wondering what’s up. And it doesn’t help that what happened at semi-formal put a huge damper on me being able to trust him … yeah, things have basically been okay since January, but now that he’s out of school, who knows what he’s doing. I don’t even know if he’s coming on Saturday … I gotta talk to him to be able to figure that out, and judging from this sudden absence, there’s no telling when that’ll be

Songs of the moment: “I Know Him So Well” by Elaine Paige and Barbara Dickson and “Undercover” by Pete Yorn …

Wow … look who just got online … and isn’t acting like anything’s wrong. Just leaves me more to think about.

Dude, I’m finally working on the Foxcroft site now (yay)! And, I just met this random cool guy online who went to Yorktown last year, lol … we’re talking about video games now. Haha.

WTF? I got absolutely no site-related emails over the weekend … not even surveys. Which is rare. And the forms are working, I just checked them. I also didn’t get any DWI emails — I only had 8 rockinfree emails, and half of those were junk anyway. I don’t get it … but oh well.

I just had my chemistry quiz, and for once I think I only got 1 question wrong — go me! Hopefully that won’t put me below a B. And I got a B on my Spanish paper too (yay) … and thank god Ms. Davis is letting us have a re-test of 5 questions from our previous test … lol, I got like a 65 on that, and I know Tiffany got a 69 or something.

Know what else is cool? Brad fixed my keyboard! There was always one random key that wouldn’t really work, and he figured out that a rock was stuck underneath (have no idea how that got there), and he managed to get it out He also was trying to make it run faster, but we couldn’t figure out how to defrag it with DOS (and the Accessories defrag was going way too slow), so he asked Doug what he thought (’cause Doug knows everything about computers lol), and he told him that it would probably be happier with Windows 98 instead of ME (which is fine with me … however it works, I’m happy) — so I’m guessing that upgrade will happen sometime over the summer.

And fuck … my nose is being weird today. I hope I’m not getting sick. And dude, last night I was actually tired when I went to bed … usually I’m not, and kinda lay there for awhile, but not this time … I need more weekends like Tech to wear me out Well, g2g to morning meeting in a few minutes, so bye for now.

OMG, Tech weekend was so awesome! *sigh* Explaining it all would take up too much space, time, and effort, hehe … so I’m just gonna say what I realized, and I’m still like aww/in awe from it, hehe: Brad definitely wants to marry me How sweet is that?

Okay, yesterday he was like, “if you and I get married and have kids, you’ll have to promise you won’t act like my mom.” Hehe. And then today in the car on the way back, he was commenting on how he now had 3 rings to take off (’cause we had both gotten the hematite ones from Natural Bridge), and I asked if he was gonna get any more (’cause I have like 10 now ), and he got this smile on his face and said, “what are you thinking?” I go, “right now?” He’s like, “well, are you thinking about maybe a ring with diamonds?” And I was just like aww, “yeah” And then a few minutes before I left today, he says, “too bad we aren’t living together.” But yeah … *happy sigh* He’s so awesome … and now he’s being weird in the chat room … so I’m gonna go now and be depressed. Bye.

P.S. Fuck I forgot to study for my chemistry quiz … *click click boom* And why is my weekend suddenly sucking? I know … it’s been great, and of course it has to go downhill now … it’s the laws of physics … and it’s bedtime now. Talk to people soon … if I don’t kill myself from freaking out first … and my WNC forms better not be fucked up again …

Wow, I feel really disoriented for some reason. Like, things keep getting blurry then clear then blurry again … and yeah. After I’m done with this and emailing Brad, I’m gonna go to the PX, take a shower, then go to sleep, lol. But figured I’d update this thing first.

Well, I got a 3rd and 4th in the show yesterday! Everyone said I did really well, and deserved a 1st hehe. But Sherman wouldn’t bend right and cut a few corners, so I think that was what messed me up. But oh well, I’m happy with what I got

And thankfully, almost all the permission crap for Friday is done and in. I’ll have to make up a lab in chemistry, but she said it’s easy, so that’s cool *sigh* There is nothing better in the world than spending 8 hours total in a car, cuddling with Brad hehe. That’s gonna rock. And the lords of scheduling have made my life even more easier by letting me have a double free on Friday, so I’ll have time to shower, pack, call Dad, and all the other little stuff that comes with planning a weekend trip. So yay.

On another note … I was talking a little bit with Dad about grades on the phone earlier … and I just realized that I might have Cs in Spanish, chemistry, and algebra — crap! I know I have As or Bs in English, history, and graphic design … but yeah. Every quiz and test that I’ve gotten back in those classes has had between a 60 and 75 on it … though pretty much the rest of the work I’ve done is higher than that. So yeah … I better get my act together pretty soon, or else I’m screwed … both college and Dad-wise.