Yeah, Brad hasn’t been on since yesterday morning. And usually he’s on at least after study hall *sigh* Here we go again. Me getting depressed ’cause he’s never on, so I feel like he’s avoiding me (he also doesn’t call), and then me acting all happy when he is on ’cause I feel guilty about doubting him. I have no real reason to get mad at him, other than the fact that I don’t know what he’s doing all those hours I spend wondering what’s up. And it doesn’t help that what happened at semi-formal put a huge damper on me being able to trust him … yeah, things have basically been okay since January, but now that he’s out of school, who knows what he’s doing. I don’t even know if he’s coming on Saturday … I gotta talk to him to be able to figure that out, and judging from this sudden absence, there’s no telling when that’ll be

Songs of the moment: “I Know Him So Well” by Elaine Paige and Barbara Dickson and “Undercover” by Pete Yorn …

Wow … look who just got online … and isn’t acting like anything’s wrong. Just leaves me more to think about.