*sigh* Talking to Brad today was weird … I had a depressing away message up, ’cause I specifically wanted him to see it, then when he said he didn’t get it, I back out like I usually do and say it’s just song lyrics (which they were), but didn’t explain why I used them. Then we have the usual short conversation ’cause I had to go to algebra soon, but then he’s like, “I was talking to Shaune yesterday, and she said you were ‘totally smitten’ with me” — so, ’cause I’m stupid, had to ask him what smitten meant (in love) … and then through a chorus of me saying little things like oops and hehe … I get the feeling that I’ve made him feel the opposite of what he was trying to do to me … I think *sigh*

I dunno … I just hate not seeing him … though I know he probably doesn’t mean anything by it … it just, like, makes me feel that something isn’t right. I’ve been listening to my Saliva album over the past few days, too … relating to songs like “Faultline” and “Click Click Boom.” Also “This Town” by Korn and Kittie … I guess I like the beat. I also need to get the Andrew W.K. album …

Well, I’m off to chemistry … and then get to fail the history test. Wish me luck. And that I don’t screw things up again with Brad … *cries*