Umm … Brad just sent me a really long porn story, with the subject “imagine you and I doing this” WTF? What is he trying to imply?

Yeah … that was definitely awkward. Erica and Leslie were just in our room bitching about how they hate this school, which then leads to how stupid it is to have sex at 17, ’cause we “don’t know what love is.” During that I was just like uhh, ’cause I have Brad, and I’ve passed both of those obstacles … and just left ’cause I didn’t wanna get involved, have to explain myself, and have rumors spread about me. I also have to go to riding soon. Then they went off on the prom idea that was brought up at the class meeting earlier today, which I personally thought was a good idea — I’ve actually wondered several times why we didn’t have a prom here. I mean, just ’cause you don’t have a boyfriend doesn’t mean you can automatically diss it. And I’m not saying I will either, but I know that if Brad and I are still together then, I’d definitely invite him. And if we weren’t, I’d respect those that were with somebody and let them have their fun.

Geez … sometimes those two can be so negative. Even though I hate saying stuff like this about people … it’s just starting to get on my nerves. Just ’cause you don’t like something, doesn’t mean you should take it out on other people and expect them to agree with you. I know I certaintly don’t *sigh* And Leslie like hates me, ’cause she never talks to me unless I happen to be in the room, too … so yeah. I guess this makes the 2nd thing today that’s pissed me off. First Sunny, and now this. Oh well … 39 more days of hell. I can make it — whether or not certain people are willing to be unbiased.

Um, wtf? How the hell did Sunny get my new screenname? And of course he IMs me all like Hanson sucks, Manson is god, all that crap. Why can’t he figure it out that I don’t fuckin’ wanna talk to him anymore? We were over like, 3 years ago. And he hasn’t changed one bit. How sad is that? *sigh* I’m just pissed that I still have to deal with him. Even though I blocked him, his annoying ass is gonna keep making new screennames and IMing me. I’m starting to think that he was one who was stalking me awhile ago, saying stuff like, “I know where you live, your school in Middleburg, I can see what you’re typing, etc.” *sigh* I really wish he would die … he so deserves it

*happy sigh* … tonight was so awesome. Brad and I went to Tysons so he could look at/buy stuff from EMS, and then we had “dinner” at McDonald’s ’cause it was the only place open in the food court, lol. It was sweet ’cause he’d either hold my hand or have his arm around my shoulder as we were walking down the aisles … and it just gives you that feeling like everything’s finally perfect … ’cause there were hardly any other people around ’cause the mall was closing … and yeah. I was just like yay, hehe, I have the most awesomest guy in the world, and you don’t LOL.

Then we drove home (during which we experienced skidding — literally — to a stop light, lol … and the cabby beside us was like yeah, rock on!), jamming to random songs like “Stairway to Heaven” and “MMMBop” on the way Once at home (well, his house), we summarized the night to his mom, listened to some weird/funny stories/songs about a Duke of Earl on CD (during which we just lay there in each others arms … aw, one of the things I love the most), and then watched part of “Fight Club” with his mom while eating Bottlecaps (the candy, not the real thing). I had to be home by 12:30, so at midnight we exchanged a million kisses goodnight, and hopefully we’ll have time to hang out one more time tomorrow before I get to be stuck at school for 2 weeks again. He said he’ll call after work, so yeah … we’ll see then.

And driving home was relaxing … I had my new Savage Garden CD playing … and the sound of that, blended with that of the rain and the look of it drifting off the windshield was just really cool. Plus, the roads were almost deserted, so I didn’t have to worry about getting blinded by spray, though one time while passing a bunch of slow cars I had to the turn the wipers up to super-fast speed to make sure I was staying in my lane … but other than that, everything was fine.

*sigh* And this might sound random, but I have a hunch that Brad and I will get married someday … he keeps making little references to it. A few weeks ago after I had taken off all my rings, he was like, “ya know, one day you’ll have to take off those rings permanently, to make room for a wedding band.” A few days ago he asked if I could see myself getting married to him (which I of course said yes to), and yesterday while we were making dinner, he kept saying jokingly to his parents, “yeah, Claire and I have made a pact, if we get married, she’ll go out and earn all the money, and I’ll stay home and be the house husband, aside from teaching.” Hehe, I was just like aww. And as soon as he said the word “married,” everyone glanced at us for a second with expressions of “woah cool” across their faces

So yeah … well, I’m gonna head to bed now, but will update everyone (if anyone actually reads this thing, lol) later. Peace.

Hola. Today was kinda cool. I finally made my Savage Garden and Andrew W.K. CDs! I’m so in love with the RecordNow program that’s on the Windows XP computers here — it works! LOL. So yeah … and then I have almost no homework for tonight, am done with riding for the week, and Brad’s picking me up tomorrow! Wonder how blading with him, Nick, and Shaune will go. Aw, Nick and Shaune better start going out soon, haha. They’re so cute together.

Anyway, I g2g to study hall in about 10 minutes. I dunno why, but I don’t feel like watching the new “Friends” tonight. Even though it’s too late now (’cause I’d have to start study hall at 7), I’m just not up for it for some reason. Oh well, I’ll just play DDR or scrabble or something instead. Whitney’s being annoying (again). What a surprise … but hey, it’s to Francesca, so no biggie.

Guess what else? I requested a DWI of “End of the Century” from this site DWInsanity, and it might actually get done — so yay! My first “personal” DWI hehe.

I had a lesson on Sherman yesterday (over the hedges), and he was so good! I signed up to ride him in the show next weekend, too — he rocks! Ms. Laurie was like, dude, you were really good! Hehe. So yeah. Well, g2g get laundry and start study hall now, but talk to everyone later. Bye!

*sigh* Talking to Brad today was weird … I had a depressing away message up, ’cause I specifically wanted him to see it, then when he said he didn’t get it, I back out like I usually do and say it’s just song lyrics (which they were), but didn’t explain why I used them. Then we have the usual short conversation ’cause I had to go to algebra soon, but then he’s like, “I was talking to Shaune yesterday, and she said you were ‘totally smitten’ with me” — so, ’cause I’m stupid, had to ask him what smitten meant (in love) … and then through a chorus of me saying little things like oops and hehe … I get the feeling that I’ve made him feel the opposite of what he was trying to do to me … I think *sigh*

I dunno … I just hate not seeing him … though I know he probably doesn’t mean anything by it … it just, like, makes me feel that something isn’t right. I’ve been listening to my Saliva album over the past few days, too … relating to songs like “Faultline” and “Click Click Boom.” Also “This Town” by Korn and Kittie … I guess I like the beat. I also need to get the Andrew W.K. album …

Well, I’m off to chemistry … and then get to fail the history test. Wish me luck. And that I don’t screw things up again with Brad … *cries*

Gah … g2g to senior/junior dinner soon, but decided to start a post — who knows when I’ll get around to finishing it, lol.

Anyway, guess what? I got into AP English! Yay! Go me … hehe … don’t worry, I’m not usually this excited about school, but yeah … I needed at least 1 AP for senior year, so yay. Don’t know how Mrs. Herbert thought my essay was the best writing I’d done all year, but hey … she’s the boss, so props to her.

And guess what else? Shaune and Nick are meeting today! Hopefully everything will go well, ’cause I think they’d be cute together. Well, g2g get ready for the dinner thing, but I’ll be back later … either before or after study hall. Adios!