Woah. Woah woah. Um … okay. I thought I might be seeing Brad today. But no way now. Is it a bad thing if your boyfriend doesn’t tell you that he’s hanging out with his ex so that they can be friends again? *sigh* And he’s pissed at her ’cause she stood him up … and it was just like, bang, to me. The one time I need my guy friends online to ask about stuff, they’re not on *sigh*

Am I just paranoid, or should I be worried? I mean, I doubt he’d do anything with her, he said he just wanted to settle things with her … but why is this upsetting me so much? I guess it’s just ’cause she’s an ex … and I don’t know what I’d do if she and Brad like, got back together. Not that they would … but there’s that small chance, that everpresent feeling that kills me *cries* Why do I always do this? Why am I always depressed unless I’m with him? WTF? I’m so confused right now. Everything suddenly doesn’t make sense. And of course when Brad tells me everything, I act like I’m okay with it ’cause I should be … I don’t wanna be all selfish and annoying, ’cause obviously there’s a reason why they broke up in the first place … but yeah. If that’s so true, why does he post a pic of him and her up on Bolt and his site … and not one of us … when I know he has one, and has updated each place more than once since he’s had it *sigh* I don’t know what to do. “Ex-Girlfriend” by No Doubt is making really good sense to me right now — everything Gwen says seems to be true