*sigh* I’m so bored. No one’s online, some weird Hanson chick is IMing me, and I only have 2 more days of freedom left before school starts up again. And yeah, break has been awesome (well, most of it … ), but I don’t want it to end! Plus, going back means I can’t see Brad for like 2 weeks, which is gonna suck. Seeing Alex today went okay … all we did was drive around and get hot chocolate (well, he did), then I had to go ’cause I didn’t want Dad to start wondering where I was, and he had to go ’cause he had soccer. He likes me too … grr. Why does every guy I meet like me? LOL. I hope Brad calls soon, he said he would. Man, I don’t see how he can work on his car all day … I mean, it’s freezing outside, haha. And I doubt if his garage thing is heated. But oh well … gonna go surf aimlessly now, so ttyl.

Okay, I just got Kristen’s reply from my email to her regarding the whole Brad thing, and as much as I totally went against what she said (taking a break from guys in general) ’cause I didn’t know she thought that until now, she IS right. I mean, Brad knows that he’s been a bitch and all, but at the same time I know he cares, ’cause he said he didn’t go out with anybody (or even looked for people to go out with) while I was with Justin ’cause he was hoping he could come back to me. And at that time I kept saying I would never ever talk to him again, etc … yet he still hung on and was patient. And now look what happened … everything’s back to where it was before. I guess history does repeat itself, lol. I’m kinda wondering if I should take her advice, though … it’d kinda suck for Brad since we’re already going out, but then again, if he still cares he should respect my decision since all I’m running on for him is trust, and my luck with that lately hasn’t exactly been blue-ribbon material .. *sigh* … love sucks.

Anyway, I’m meeting this MatchMaker guy Alex later today … wonder how that’s gonna go. I gotta be careful, though, ’cause we’re meeting at Tuckahoe … and that’s not exactly the most crowded place ever. But then again, there IS a busy street near it, so I think I’ll be fine. And I DO have my car, so I have like a get-away thing, lol. I just tried to call him, but no one was home (and the Spanish answering machine came on, haha), and don’t wanna call his cell ’cause that’s long distance. Oh well. And let’s hope he doesn’t try anything either … I’m not 100% sure if I told him that Brad and I were back together … but if I didn’t, he’ll find out today

Okay, fuck you Justin. I can’t believe I thought you were so nice *sigh* Ah well … I’m tired of explaining this again, so I’m just gonna say I’m back with Brad. Yeah, I’m sure all of you are freaking out and wondering why, but don’t worry, we talked everything out, and hopefully this time around things will work better.

P.S. In case you’re wondering, it’s a new year, so I figured I might as well start a new blog ’cause the other one was starting to annoy me. I can’t believe I finally got this fuckin’ thing to work, though, haha, so yay me Ta ta for now.