OMG, Justin is the exact kind of guy I hate and try to stay away from — the type that only care about themselves and if they have a girl to screw *sigh* God, what a bitch! I’m just like, disgusted by him. Why didn’t I see this side of him before?

And what is up with Neil wanting to read all my journals so badly? The night has turned crazy once again. By the way, everyone go and download stuff by Monarch — if you like metal, you’ll like this.

Well, I finally added a little commenting thingy to this blog, so make good use of it people Well, today was okay, as usual. Finally fixed the Antarctica picture pages to make them all look the same … I wish Mr. Northrup would be more consistent layout-wise and a little more editor-conscious (I found a link to a local file that spans the whole site, so yeah). Dunno what he’s gonna do about that Haven’t told him yet, but I figure I will tomorrow when I remember.

OMFG. Justin’s read my old blog (which was basically all about HIM) *dies* So has Neil, and I’m guessing Brad too, ’cause he said he has one of them bookmarked at home. WTF? How … ? I can’t believe it, I feel so weird, like my privacy is gone, out the window … the people I write about in my blogs are the ones who read it. Ugh … man, was that stuff personal. How in the hell do these links get out? I never told them to anybody .. *sigh* But thank god it was my old blog … I don’t know what I’d do if they read this one … and who the hell does Justin think he is, labeling me “psycho” ’cause I write what I really feel in my blogs? Whatever, it just goes to prove what a bitch he is. That’s the whole POINT of journals, dumbass. Hehe, felt good to say that

I really think Mrs. Heidi hates me — the only time she talks to me is to tell me to get off the computer and go to bed. It’s like she’s mad that I’m on the computer all the time or something. And it’s not like I did anything to her … I’m always nice to her, and last semester she could care less when I went to bed. But now it’s like she’s had this sudden epiphany to make my life even more hellish, and she feels that by telling me what to do — for the first time this school year — she’s doing me a “favor.” Yeah right. Besides, I just get back online after she goes to bed, so her little plan basically has no effect on me. That’s one thing I miss about home … being able to stay up past 11 without someone nagging at you to get the hell off the computer and go to bed *sigh*

Know what sucks? I lost my fire ring in the leaves today during Mr. Mackay’s little cookout thing — I’m so pissed! That ring was really cool and cost like $8, I can’t believe I lost it *sigh* Maybe I’ll just have to go back to Baltimore and get another one, lol.

Okay, I really hope that I’m just over-analyzing things again, but I think Brad’s mad at me. Earlier today after I got back from riding I IMed him just to say hi ’cause I was about to take a shower, but then he signed off without saying anything. And he never does that without at least replying … if he did do that intentionally, I don’t know what I did wrong! The only thing I can think of is that he found this site (’cause I gave him the link to the MusicTicker thing ’cause I was so happy I’d figured it out), and then read some of the Neil stuff below and freaked out. Geez, this is like an online journal, some of the stuff I might not mean, and most of it is just my random feelings at the moment, which change all the time. If he did read the Neil stuff, I’m sorry, but how would you feel if some random girl IMs you and starts basically showering you with compliments about how much they like you? You’d probably be a little surprised too, which is why I wrote that stuff … but yeah … *sigh* … hopefully I’m just jumping to conclusions (’cause I really don’t want him to be pissed at me after all that’s happened) … but if I were him, I’d probably get all hostile too *sigh again* I hope he gets on soon.

Okay, nevermind, everything’s fine! LOL … he said he didn’t get my message, so everything’s cool (I hope).

Today has been nice and un-productive, hehe. I stayed up ’til 3:15 am last night (dunno why), woke up at 12:30 pm, finished Reader’s Digest, took a shower, and now I’m here — online — where I have been for the past, like, 3 hours haha. I really should go and see if Mr. Northrup is in the library working on the Antarctica pages (’cause I told him I’d help him over the weekend), but yesterday when I went he wasn’t there, so I dunno. Oh well … he knows where I live, so if he needs my help, he can come over here lol.

But yeah … I’m talking to Kristen now about college stuff … man, she’s gonna be my lifeline next year when I have to go through all the college crap … and from watching the seniors each year here struggle to balance that, school work, and sports, I’m really not looking forward to it. But oh well, I gotta do it sometime, so might as well get it over with. Well, gotta go now, but I’ll post later. Bye!

Bah … I hate boring days! All I’ve done today is go to career day, watch “Swordfish” (good movie, btw), and gone online. Whoop de doo. Moreover, I hate closed weekends. There’s nothing interesting to do! And I just skip all the required stuff ’cause I’d rather sleep that sit through it, lol. Well, I skip the ones they don’t take attendance on And my back hurts again from leaning against the wall so long. Man, I wish they had comfy chairs around the area where people go online … that’d be so nice, hehe. I think if I keep doing this I’m gonna paralyze myself! But yeah … some required dinner thing is soon, dunno if I’m going. Think I should, ’cause Mrs. Heidi is getting pissed at me skipping everything. Oh well …

Dude. Okay, even though Neil may not be the hottest guy in the world, he’s so cute, lol. He wants to send me roses … like real roses to me. Um … !! Okay, the rose buddy icon was sweet, but real roses? Geez, people are gonna think we’re going out or something I mean, the only time Brad gave me a rose was at semi-formal … never randomly like this guy, but oh well. I doubt he’d actually do it

I saw “Legally Blonde” today too, it was pretty cool! A nice chick flick with the happily ever after ending, lol. I needed that … man, it was great … I had my spicy chicken Cup Noodles, a bagel, and “Legally Blonde” … what else do you need for a relaxing Friday afternoon? Well, maybe Brad, but yeah … other than that, nothing! Hehehe.

And dude, I saw Hanson on Sabrina! Julie came and grabbed me the second she realized Ike was on, I was like yay! ‘Cause I didn’t know we got the WB here Plus, their new song “Hey” is awesome. I couldn’t understand much of the lyrics ’cause people kept talking to me since I was all happy that I got to see Hanson, but oh well. I’ll be able to download it soon!