Well, still dunno what to do about the whole Justin “babe” thing, but last night he DID offer … omg, Allena’s sister just died She just ran down the hall crying like I’ve never seen anybody cry. Man, I can’t believe it … even I am shaken up. Didn’t even get to finish the Justin sentence … but dude, that sucks! I don’t know what I’d do if someone I knew died. OMG, I hope she’s okay. Well, I know she won’t be for a LONG time, but yeah … all she’ll need is time. Man … now I wanna call Justin and tell him how much I care about him … ’cause what if something like this happened to him all without notice? I would seriously, like, break down or something … though he’ll probably call tonight … I feel the way I did when he told me about Brad. When Brad told me he wanted me back. When Ashley sent me the hug email. Like that … like, surprised and mad and angry and in disbelief *shivers* I even have the shivering thing going on … but yeah, if I talk any more about this I’m gonna be all sad & depressed and stuff … so gonna *try* and get it off my mind …

*takes a deep breath*

Anyway, back to Justin. Last night, for the first time ever, HE offered to call me. Not me asking, “hey, wanna call sometime tomorrow?” or something, but HE brought it up! I was so happy ’cause that hasn’t happened to me in the longest time — and even though he got wrapped up in work and didn’t call at 4 like he said, he said he was sorry and wanted to call back tonight. So yay *shivers again* Man, this dying thing has got to go away soon. And this was right after I got back to normal again after the Brad thing .. *sigh* …