Woah, it’s so weird with Justin not on AIM. He’s home right now, which is why, but I’m just not used to it ’cause at school he’s online 24/7 … especially at night, too. And then me coming home some random night & him not even signed on is something I gotta get used to I guess. Hehe.

But anyway … today was interesting. Up until about 4:30 pm I did nothing except go online … and eat … and go online again. LOL. But then around 4:30, Shaune comes to pick me up so we can go to Tysons. We get there fine, shop a little in the usual stores we check out (Delia’s, Wet Seal, FYE, etc.) … and when we get to Claire’s, I get this craving to buy rings. I dunno why, but I do! So I’m checking out all the rings for like 100000 hours (and I’m sure Shaune must’ve gotten kinda annoyed with me taking so long, but oh well, hehe) … and guess what I find first? A fire ring! So that’s automatically a must-get. Next I find this cool silver ring that’s shaped like a lightning bolt. But then I randomly find this ring that says “Justin” on it. At first I’m like, wtf is a random Justin ring doing in here, but then I realize it’s for *NSYNC. I’m not sure if I should get it yet ’cause Justin & I haven’t been together that long, but Shaune thinks I should, and I figure, what the hell, it’d be funny if nothing else So yeah, I decide to get the fire and Justin rings, and head to the cash register. But then the lady tells me that I can buy 2 rings and get the 3rd free. Score! Now I can get the lightning bolt ring too! Thing is, I forgot where I put it on the rack, so I spend another, like, hour searching the rack for it. I finally find it (after almost giving up), and then go back to the checkout to buy it all. So yeah, that’s the first interesting part about tonight. Onto the next!

On the way to Tysons, Shaune’s friend Ariel (older brother of her ex) calls. Twice. I answer ’cause Shaune’s driving and can’t talk, but once we get to Tysons, she calls him back, and after three “call-backs,” she ends up telling me that we’re meeting them (Ariel and his brothers Walter and Jose) by Sbarro in 20 minutes. LOL. So yeah. We do more random shopping ’til then, then meet them. And damn, they’re tall! Like, more than 6 feet … except Walter, he’s like, my height, lol. The whole time before Shaune kept saying that she did not like Ariel as a boyfriend and that there was no chance of them going out … but then how come whenever he did something like put his hands on her shoulders or nonchalantly hugged her (and everything else flirty), she didn’t do anything to push him away or let him know that she didn’t like him like that? *sigh* It’s just weird … I mean, come on, she went out with his little brother! Even though she claims to have told him that she doesn’t like him like that, then wtf was up with her letting him put his arm around her and holding his hand while watching Boys and Girls at her house later? Huh? What was that? Unless I’m totally blowing things out of proportion and overreacting (again), am I right that the whole arm-around-the-shoulder, holding-hand thing is something that couples do? Not friends? Grr …

And then Jose was being all weird with me. Like at one point (actually, it was more than one point over the course of the night) he put his hand on my shoulder. Nothing big, but it was weird ’cause I’d just met him a few hours before. But oh well. He also kept asking/saying stuff to me, and half the time I’d just smile and nod ’cause I either didn’t hear him, didn’t know what to say, or plain didn’t wanna say anything, lol. I hope he doesn’t like me. Man, sound familiar? That would suck. I don’t need that again. He also kinda reminds me of Sunny. He’s Pakistani, has the gross curly hair, and the same smile *shudders* That’s another thing I don’t need.

The whole time while we were watching Boys and Girls, I kept wishing that Justin was there. Even though I just saw him last night, I miss him! I wanted someone to hug during the typical cute teen movie, hehe. But yeah … *sigh* I’ve typed a lot. Dad’s making me go to bed soon, too. Even though we’re not leaving for NY ’til noon. Oh well. Grr, and I wanna talk to Justin before I leave! Man, it’s crazy how much I miss him … I dunno why, I just do. And I also wanna know what he thinks about the ring … ’cause I know wearing something like that that relates to “us” will keep reminding me how much he likes me, hehe, which is basically what gets me through each day *sigh* Aww. He’s so cute. Well, g2g now, but I’ll keep you guys updated. TTYL!

Aww, today with Justin was so cool. First, although there were stupid train problems and he was an hour late, we watched American Beauty, and thankfully Dad & Ross got the hint and left to play tennis for most of the time, hehe. We didn’t do more than just hold hands and stuff, but I was just glad that they weren’t there. But man, it was kinda scary seeing that, ’cause the Ricky guy looks exactly like Brad. And we all know how Brad turned into a bitch recently. But other than that, it was cool. The ending surprised me though! But like Justin said, the more you watch it, the more you pick up little things, like how the dad guy said in the beginning that he was gonna die, he just didn’t know it yet. Weird. Anyway, after the movie, we can’t think of anything else to do, so I’m like, “hey, wanna drive around a little?” Justin says sure, so in a few minutes we head out. Still not knowing where to go, I just go up 16th St., head towards Ballston, and then go back down Wilson Blvd. As we drive down Wilson the idea hits me to go to the park, so when we get a block before that, I ask him, he has no objection, hehe, and I turn in and park. We get out, do our usual walk loop hand-in-hand, then go back to the van. With, of course, a little kiss before getting in Not wanting to get caught by the “dog cop” again, I drive back to the spot where we had gone last week after getting thrown out of the park lot LOL. Since my dad had taken the back seats out of the van for storage stuff, we had to sit on the floor, but it’s cool anyway. So yeah, I park, he kisses me a few times more, and then we head to the back … where we basically just sit for about 45 minutes, try to keep warm, hug, kiss, and talk. It was cute, like almost everytime we kissed he would reach up and touch my face or my hair … man, how did I deserve him? And near the end, I kissed him on his nose, and he smiled and was like, “aww”. Hehe. I can’t wait to see him again.

Aww. Justin is SO cute! Hehe … every time I talk to him he seems to come up with something new to make me wanna run out the door, drive 80 mph down to UMD, and hug him, hehe. Okay, and now that I named this entry after a BSB song, I gotta listen to it, hehe. It’s called “Drowning,” which I’m sure most of you know. But anyway, the bad part of tonight is that W(S)hitney is on duty, so I can’t stay up. Damn her. It’s not like all the other leaders make me go to bed, hehe. But oh well … the good parts of tonight make up for it! I even finished most of my homework for break — so all I have left is one (hard) question on my lab & some stuff for algebra, which I’m sure won’t take too long. So yay. Oh, and everyone must go & download “Life on Mars” by Anggun and “Book of Days” by Enya — they rock! Especially if you love celtic-y/slow music Well, g2g now ’cause Shitney’s here (lol), but ttyl!

P.S. Also, the whole “babe” thing with Justin is null & void now, hehe (guess I was over-analyzing again) — 2 days ago he called me cutey, yesterday he called me babe, and today he called me girl. Hehe. Yay!

Well, still dunno what to do about the whole Justin “babe” thing, but last night he DID offer … omg, Allena’s sister just died She just ran down the hall crying like I’ve never seen anybody cry. Man, I can’t believe it … even I am shaken up. Didn’t even get to finish the Justin sentence … but dude, that sucks! I don’t know what I’d do if someone I knew died. OMG, I hope she’s okay. Well, I know she won’t be for a LONG time, but yeah … all she’ll need is time. Man … now I wanna call Justin and tell him how much I care about him … ’cause what if something like this happened to him all without notice? I would seriously, like, break down or something … though he’ll probably call tonight … I feel the way I did when he told me about Brad. When Brad told me he wanted me back. When Ashley sent me the hug email. Like that … like, surprised and mad and angry and in disbelief *shivers* I even have the shivering thing going on … but yeah, if I talk any more about this I’m gonna be all sad & depressed and stuff … so gonna *try* and get it off my mind …

*takes a deep breath*

Anyway, back to Justin. Last night, for the first time ever, HE offered to call me. Not me asking, “hey, wanna call sometime tomorrow?” or something, but HE brought it up! I was so happy ’cause that hasn’t happened to me in the longest time — and even though he got wrapped up in work and didn’t call at 4 like he said, he said he was sorry and wanted to call back tonight. So yay *shivers again* Man, this dying thing has got to go away soon. And this was right after I got back to normal again after the Brad thing .. *sigh* …

Wow, I’m weird, I go from not writing in here for days to more than one entry per day. Hehe. Also, before I go on to rant about Justin, I gotta say that my new favorite band is Flickerstick. They rock! Anyway, back to ranting … is it just me, or does it mean something that Justin doesn’t call me babe/cutey anymore? ‘Cause he did when we went out before, but he hasn’t since that. Should I be worried? I mean, everything else is going perfectly, but I’ve just noticed this. I’m probably just over-analyzing again … but yeah … anyone have advice? Should I ask him about it? *sigh* I hate noticing little stuff! It always takes away from you really enjoying the bigger and better part of something.

Well, g2g get ready for chemistry now, so I’ll ttyl. See ya.

Man, I can’t wait ’til Sunday. For one, it’s the start of Thanksgiving break, and for two, I get to see Justin again! I’m so happy! We’re gonna rent American Beauty (well, I am at Blockbuster — and hopefully see Shaune there as well — and bring it on the metro) … so far that’s all we’re doing, save for hanging out and eating something, hehe. And hopefully his roommate will leave us alone for a little bit I still can’t get over how awesome Saturday went, though. He asked me out in this non-direct way, hehe … he was like, “so are you cool with you and me?” I was like, “yeah.” Hehe I’m even wearing the sweater now that I wore when I was with him — am I crazy? I swear, I’ve never felt so perfect with a guy. I dunno why, but it was the greatest feeling to just sit there with him for hours in the back of the van, just talking and hugging and kissing and stuff, with no pressure to do anything more. He looked so cute in the dark, too — even when we got kicked out of the park by some weird cop-dog-walker-guy. At the end he was like, “hey, we only got kicked out of one place tonight!” LOL. Also, we had originally planned to leave to go back to the metro at 9, but both of us didn’t wanna leave the back of the van, hehe, so we kept postponing it ’til 10 … and I knew if we could, we would’ve spent the whole night there and probably fallen asleep with each other (he said if he had kept his eyes closed longer that definitely would’ve happened) … aw, that would’ve rocked. Falling asleep with him Can’t wait ’til my dad lets me stay the night at UMD (yeah right, hehe). Also, while we were in the van, he kept running his hand through my hair and stroking my face … I practically melted in happiness/cuteness, lol. I mean, Brad hardly ever did that … much less willingly spend 9 hours with me. Justin also gave me a backrub towards the end, which felt awesome. How did I get so lucky guy-wise? Hehe. Well, g2g to morning meeting now (and then computer class!), but I’ll ttyl. Bye!

*relieved sigh* Okay, well Brad is gone. History. Poof. I broke up with him earlier today, the hug email was the last straw. And he wasn’t even sad when I told him I was ending it, he was just like, “ok” and “good luck.” WTF? Everyday he turns into more of a bitch. And guess what else? Justin still likes me! Like, A LOT! We aren’t even going out yet, and so far he’s called me (to talk about the Brad thing), sent me a virtual hug, done the little kiss face thingy on AIM, and wants to warm me up when I’m cold, hehe. Plus, he told me about the whole Brad thing in the first place, so props to him for that, too. Aww, and he just said he was worried about me when I was all depressed and stuff. Isn’t that cute? LOL … I dunno. Aw, and Allena’s crying over some guy now … poor her, I so know how she feels. Hmm … well, g2g now & talk to Justin more … maybe get some sleep TTYL!