Man, I think I’m about to cry. Why does love have to be so fuckin’ hard? And why is Brad so possessive? I can’t help it if I didn’t know! It’s not like he clearly told me! And now he’s saying that if I don’t go out with him he’s gonna hate me — like, seriously hate me. WTF? You don’t DO that to people! Geez! I feel like I’m being pulled apart. In one direction towards Justin and wanting to stay with him, and in the other towards Brad ’cause I don’t want him to feel crappy ’cause of me. WHY? This isn’t supposed to happen! This is why I fuckin’ asked Brad in the first place if it was okay with him if Justin asked me out! Hello, does he not understand what that means? Asking someone out is asking if you can date them — I mean, he fuckin’ asked me that! I’m just so pissed at him right now — it’s not my fault he didn’t tell me how he felt. I mean, telling your girlfriend how you feel is not hard. Geez. And why did I agree to see him tomorrow (as friends)? He better not try anything. I’m gonna be so mad if he does.

On a happier note, guess what? I found out tonight that Justin is left-handed (like me)! How cool is that? ‘Cause I don’t know anyone else who is — and how more perfect can it be than my boyfriend? Hehe.