Okay, well I’m talking to Justin online now, and after awhile of running out of things to say, we started typing random smiley faces and stuff. Then he said, “would you like a kiss?” I thought he meant the smiley face kiss (I think it’s :-*), so I was like, sure, hehe … ’cause I know he likes me and stuff, lol, and he’s a cool guy. But little did I know that he meant in real life! LOL, not that it’s a bad thing, just kinda surprised … ’cause here I am, 2 days after breaking up with Brad and I already have another guy wanting to go out with me, haha. And since no one was online who I could spaz to (Shaune, Kristen, etc.), I decided to write in here, hehe.

Now I just gotta figure out if I wanna be with him … ’cause Brad was a mere 2 days ago! *sigh* I don’t know. Buy shy guys are cute and sweet, hehe. Which he was … The only downside to him is that he’s only 1 inch taller than me … if not my height, lol. But oh well, it’s not that big a deal! *swats the air* And this stupid fly needs to go away, haha. On another note, I saw Alex today! After a few agonizing moments of if Shaune would call and when/if Dad would go and what I would say to both to pull it off, but thankfully by some unknown force I am again free! The whole time my stomach was in a nervous knot wondering what Dad was up to back home, which might be one factor in why my driving sucked, lol (accidentally cut off an 18-wheeler and missed 2 exits) … but oh well. I got home in one piece and without suspicion, so I’m happy. Plus I feel loved again with Justin’s kissing thing. Which is rare, lemme tell ya … feeling loved. Up to the beginning of this summer I felt like no one truly did … but then Brad came! And then Justin (I think … ), so yeah, I’m happy. Didn’t really do much with Alex, though. I showed him my Aussie pictures and bungy video, and then we played TimeSplitters with his friend for a little while. And then we played by ourselves. I again lost badly, although I did kill him a few times! I suck so bad at that game, haha, but oh well, it’s fun! There’s definitely no chance of us having a relationship, though, ’cause of his soul-mate Annie all the way in New York (whom he loves with everything that he is). And no, I’m not gonna go and like track her down and stalk her, haha — I respect the fact that they’re perfect for each other. It’s cute! Everyone has their other half … it’s just a matter of finding them. Although I kinda do like him and he’s really cute, I’d feel weird being with him ’cause I’d always know in the back of my mind that I wasn’t “the one”, ya know? And I don’t date just for the hell of it … only if the person has the right kind of qualities and personality and stuff like that Alex also has the drinking/drug thing (although not that much), so that’s another reason why it’d be weird to go out with him. But oh well, he still rocks. OMG, Joey Lawrence’s song “I Didn’t Wanna Fall in Love” is EXACTLY what I feel right now! Hehe. Anyway, well I g2g now, but I’ll talk to all of you Diarylander people (hehe) later — bye!