Stupid me *slaps forehead* During the car ride home after spending the night with Brad, I reminded myself at least 10 times to remember to tell him that tomorrow is our two-month anniversary when we got to my house, but I forgot. Not that it’s THAT big of a deal, but I still wanted to let him know *sigh* Got to go 100 mph in his car on the way back, though, while racing this random tailgater. Haha. I wonder if he thinks I’m stupid or whatever ’cause I’m a horrible direction-giver. Hell, I don’t even know the exit number to my house, can’t keep the two major roads straight that go to my street, always point in what seems like the opposite direction, and a slew of other things. And then I didn’t have my key when the door was locked (which it NEVER is), so I had to knock and look like an idiot until Ross came. And Will (Brad’s friend and bandmate) was there, too, so that made the embarassment factor even higher. Grr … can’t a night with him and his friends EVER happen with me not messing up? *sigh (again)* AND, when we were sitting at Jai’s house watching the anime movies, I was too shy to shift my weight around in Brad’s lap ’cause they were there, so my neck got this big “crick” (or whatever) in it (actually, it still kinda hurts). How PATHETIC is that? Sometimes I don’t get myself. And with lack of more words to describe how I feel, I’m gonna stop now. I mean, don’t take this as a signal that I don’t like hanging out with my boyfriend’s friends, it’s just that I’m so insecure with myself around them for some reason. I guess I have this thing about first impressions or something … yeah, I don’t know them as well as I know him … and that’s probably it, but still, why do I have to act like a freak when I first meet them? I dunno if they even take note of the stupid things I do that seem like HUGE issues to me, but oh well … you can’t change the past. On a happier note, the time spent WITH Brad rocked … the minute I got out of the van to say hi to him, Jai, and Will, he wrapped his arms around me and gave me this huge hug, all with Dad watching from the driver’s seat, hehe. I was like, aww. Then we went to Jai’s house to play DDR, racing games, and watch anime movies … and even though I was enjoying watching Brad beat Jai on the racetrack (lol), after two sets he said to Jai, “hey, wanna do one player? I’m neglecting Claire and that isn’t good.” Or something like that. I was like, “no, it’s okay” but he still came and sat with me Then we watched some weird anime movies, but that was cool ’cause I got some “snuggle time,” hehe. Except for the neck/weight shifting part above *shudders* Gotta stop suffering in silence! Man, sometimes I HATE being shy. But anyway, I should probably go ’cause this is getting kinda long, so ttyl! And before I forget (again), let Brad know that the band who sings the “Down With the Sickness” song is Disturbed. Adios!

Life is simple. Eat. Sleep. Surf the Net (courtesy my cool Canadian t-shirt that I got yesterday, hehe).

Thankfully, the little thing about Brad that I thought was gonna happen won’t. Well, I’m 99.9% sure that it won’t, hehe. I talked to him online today (plus he wrote me an email and sent me another “wink,” hehe) and he was his usual, affecionate self Wonder if he’s read my new profile yet? Oh well … next time he’s on I’m gonna ask — hope he’s into country music! OMG, they have The Simpsons in French here (Montreal), that’s so funny! Haha, Bart speaking French. Never thought I’d hear that. Anyway, this diary entry doesn’t really have a point, other than the beginning. I’m bored, as usual, and don’t wanna go to bed yet. Speaking of bed, Brad told me in his email today that he hasn’t been sleeping well lately. That’s not good, and makes me worried. I mean, I know the feeling of being endlessly tired (a.k.a. school), and don’t want him to have to go through that, especially during the summer! *sigh* Hope he feels better tomorrow, but I doubt it, considering the aura of his email Oh well … I got The Princess Diaries soundtrack today (the special CANADA version, haha … no, not really, there isn’t one, lol), and it’s cool! Of course, the reason I got it was ’cause Hanson’s “Wake Up” was in the track list. There’s also a good BBMak, Backstreet Boys, Aaron Carter, and B*Witched song on there, if you’re interested. The song playing now is “Ain’t Nuthin’ But a She Thing” by Lil’ J featuring Nobody’s Angel and Tammy Phoenix, but I don’t really like it that much. Oh well. Think I’m gonna call Brad tomorrow morning ’cause he’d be at work — yay! I really miss him. Well, gonna go check out GooseHead.com now (lucky Ashley), so ttyl!