*cries* Get ready for another long episode of sadness. Brad finally called me, and after talking for awhile, I have a feeling that we’re gonna have to break up I really don’t want to, I love him so much. And after almost 3 months together, it has to end. Why? I thought he was the one, I really thought that this was gonna work, but no. And even though he doesn’t want to end it either, he’s too busy with work and school and stuff, and he barely has time for that, much less me, friends, family, etc. And it’s just gonna get harder when I go back to school and his workload gets heavier and stuff … and just, *sigh*, I can’t believe it. As No Doubt would put it, I’m gonna be another ex-girlfriend. I just hope that if we do have to end it (god forbid), I won’t get depressed and cry all day and stuff. I know I probably will, though … and I just realized that whatever happens, whether we stay together or break up, I’m gonna be hurting either way. Never seeing him = hurt and breaking up (of course) = hurt. Why is love so fuckin’ hard? Plus, probably nothing is gonna happen next summer ’cause if his friend gets him this job in Annapolis, we wouldn’t be able to get back together ’cause that’s like 2 hours away *sigh again* I just want someone who’ll love me forever and ever and ever … is that too much to ask?

At least he still wants to be friends if we do break up … not sure if that’s a good or bad thing … ?